Sometimes, Life Can Be Hard And Very Mean

Hi everyone! So incredibly sorry that I couldn't post last Friday. Things were a bit hectic so I decided to write this post about why I couldn't blog anything. If you read my post 'Guys, I'm Sorry And I Need Your Help Urgently!!!', then you might have an idea of what has been happening to me and if not, please read that post because it is really important. I want to explain more of what happened since then. Without further of due, let's get started.

I last informed you guys that Bestie was ignoring me. She still is. She has been the biggest coward to me because she is scared of the Twins. When I got the train with her last week, we were talking about the situation and she turned around and said " This is also extremely hard for me because the Twins are still my best friends and its so awkward because you guys are fighting" I got so extremely mad because last year (when I was still friends with the Twins) the Twins were so rude and horrible, mean disgusting all those things and so I sacrificed my relationship with the Twins so that I can stick with Bestie and support her and when it comes to my situation, she isn't helping me like I did for her. When we were walking to school and coming into the building, Bestie just suddenly stopped and so I stopped too because I thought something was wrong. I asked her "Why have you stopped? Are you ok?" She turned around and said "Move go into the school already." I then realised that Bestie didn't even wanted to be seen with me coming into school and I got so mad and upset and extremely disappointed. I now think, maybe Bestie isn't my best friend anymore because best friends will ever do this to each other no matter what!

Before our assembly, Dear Friend told me that the Twins are bad mouthing my sister and not to vote for her for school president. (My sister is running for school president and the Twins hate me therefore, they hate my sister.) And Dear Friend told me the types of things they were saying and I was shocked. I messaged my mum and told her and she emailed the school and I ran to find my sister and I told her as well.

It was during assembly that I started to get really anxious. My heart was racing, I couldn't breathe and  I started to get all clammy and I knew a panic attack was about to happen. I felt like I was going to cry. I managed to fight it through assembly but before going into my first period, I messaged my mum saying I feel like I'm going to have a panic attack and I'm just going to start crying. Guess what happened? I walked into class (it was french and one of the Twins were in there cause she is in the same class as me but she shouldn't because its an advanced class and she has people holding her hand all the way and she is just way too dumb) and just had a panic attack and just left immediately. I rushed to my locker (while I was still shaking and  crying and I couldn't breathe) and started messaging my mum and crying to her on the phone and having a huge panic attack. Luckily a few minutes later, my extremely nice form tutor (who absolutely hates the Twins and who I spoke to about my situation the day before this happened) came and found me and comforted me and she didn't even care that I had my phone in my hand which was very lucky and she made me feel a bit better. I managed to go back to class and get through with first and second period.

Then it was recess and the Principal called me in. I explained everything and what happened and how I'm barely affected by the twins and that my panic attack was just from me overthinking my situation and being overwhelmed by Bestie and how she has been treating me. My principal then told me that I was handling everything amazingly and beautifully and that she has never seen anyone like me handle bullies so well and so obviously I was really happy and I gained a bit of my confidence back. I went to speak to my sister to explain what happened in my morning and I found her talking to the Twins about bad mouthing her. Luckily, my sister's best friend (who is basically another sister to me) was there so I stuck with her and she made me feel better. The Twins were then so mad at me being confident (because they got called in by the principal and they got in trouble before I went to speak to the principal) and that I didn't get in trouble and that my sister had a word with them. They then went on the phone crying to their dad and then their dad called mine being really angry. Thing is, the Twins always think they are a target an no one likes them because they are so horrible so obviously that was gonna happen. Rest of the day was fine until lunch recess and the principal called the 3 of us in to talk and we all agreed to be friends or at least to get along. As soon as I got out of there, I learned 3 lessons:
1. Trust no one
2. Sometimes, life can be hard and very mean
3. Sometimes, the people you say are your friends are actually there to stab you in the back

The rest of that week was fine but that brings me to today. There was a community event happening today and so my sister tried to lobby with everyone to try and get people to vote for her. She came to me and my friends to lobby and of course, the Twins were there and after every word she said, they rolled their eyes and said to their other friends "I'm definitely not voting for her." And just started saying the rudest things which I should probably never repeat in my life. The majority of my friends said of course they are going to vote for my sister and the Twins and 2 of their minions were asking dumb questions are started being incredibly  rude. Not even incredibly, beyond extremely rude so I told my sister to leave it and that they were just being little idiots ad to not even waste a breath on them and so my sister and I left, with our heads held high looking really confident. When I turned around though (which I regret doing) they were laughing at me and my sister and pointing fingers but I just left it and thought " They can be as rude as they want because they are never going to affect me!"

And that is a recap informing you guys. Hopefully you guys can help me in any way possible because it would mean a lot to me.  I will be posting more fun and exciting blog posts once school settles and I am on track and organised with all my work I have to do! Remember to give me feedback and comment Q&A questions for my Q&A blog post which will be posted really soon! Keep an eye out for updates on my blog and I will tell if I have updated anything! Remember, I'm going to do a contest for who is going to collab blog posts with me! To enter, just be an active follower and email me (itsjustthatgirl123@gmail.com) what you would like to do and see in a blogpost, why you want to collab with me and your favourite places to be at during the summer holidays! Thank you guys so much for reading and see you guys soon!

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